What last night was barely a dream
today appears in all its sun-spoken colors.
Who am I to question the night?
Or to argue with the morning light?
Both reside within me.
Each has its place.
I will not choose one over the other.
Each opens doorways.
Portals to Grace.
What is the most basic thing you cannot change? It’s the fact that you are living in a human body and creating a human story. What is the most basic thing you rage against? It’s the fact that you are living in a human body and creating a human story. Somewhere, at some point in your life, usually during your early years, someone or something convinced you that you were “supposed to be” more than human. And you believed it. Yet the fact is that your being human won’t change as long as you have breath. You can’t not be in a body and in a story and still be here. Yet so much of your upbringing and your society seem to tell you differently. Tells you that all you need to do is make a new plan and stick to it. Tells you to work against your own physiology and wage war against your own past. As if this will solve something. It won’t. It only adds new complications to the old.
Begin then by accepting that you are human. Let yourself know this is not a bad thing. It’s a good thing actually. It’s as it should be, as it’s supposed to be. You can start by listening to what’s behind the things you don’t like about yourself. You will find that it’s always a cry for love and understanding. Hold those parts of yourself that are crippled, wounded from the fight. Begin to let them know that loving, understanding Mama/Papa Bear has arrived. Life is difficult and nobody escapes the fires of it untouched.
Let your big Self reach out to your little self. Be there for your faults. Don’t deny them. Don’t minimize them. Just be there with them. When you do this, something amazing happens. You can’t do it in order to change anything. And yet as you allow it, a sweet forgiveness begins to move within you.